Blog post #3

*Where are you in the process?  (apps, acceptances, denials, financial aid, etc.)
- I am doing all the next steps that need to be done for next year. Applying to take placement tests, applying for freshman orientation, and talking to my mom about living on campus.

*As college gets closer (by the day!), how are you feeling about it?
-I am feeling a lot more nervous about it. So many different things are running through my mind and I am starting to get a little stressed out.

*How is your family?
-My family is good. I am still trying to talk to my mom about everything and all the payments that need to be made. Things with that are going alright i guess.

*What decisions have been made at this point?
-I made the decision that i am going to San Jose State for sure because it makes things a lot easier on my mom an i financially.

*What's on your mind?
-I am just stressing out about my grades right now. 

Family/ finances

As of right now My mom has not talked to me about college one bit. When I bring anything up about the whole situation with San Jose State she just tells me "I don't know what to tell you April", or "You need to figure it out". Which then makes me really mad then i get this huge lecture on "Don't give me attitude" and all that stuff. Its not that im giving you attitude. It's just that i would rather drop the subject before it makes me really mad and i end up saying something i regret later...

Financial wise i finished my fasfa. But in order to do it i had to ask for my moms information which then made her really mad for some odd reason. It's weird, because i remember when my sisters where going through the same process and she had no problem with giving them all her information. I don't understand. My mom is sooo different with me than what she was with my two sisters. 

With them she Openly brought up college, and had no problem with helping them out with school, and with me I need to basically beg her to take me shopping for clothes or money for something I need. It just makes me think how is it going to be when I need a little help with paying for books or anything in college. I honestly think I am going to be on my own when I get to college... Hopefully im wrong because i don't know what i would do if that's the case...

Reflection

At this very moment I am stressing out about this whole San Jose State problem that I have been trying to figure out for the past two three weeks. -____-

why is it stressing me out?? Because San Jose State was my back up plan, and if i don't get into the school that was my back up I have no idea what I am going to do.

At  this moment I guess all I can do to alleviate all this stress is talk to Ms. Villagomez so she can help me through this. Honestly if it weren't for her I would be completely lost. Other than this I don't know what else i could do...

In the next month I am most definitely looking forward to Winter formal! I mean who wouldn't be. lol. Ummm I don't really have anything else going on this month so I have no idea what the second thing I am looking forward to.

In the college process right no I am still trying to get my application from not being dropped due to my SAT scores not being sent. 

feeling like giving up!

UGH im starting to get really frustrated. For the past two weeks I have been sending emails, calling colleges, and going to see MS. Villagomez. When everyone tells you your fresman year, make sure shes your friend! they are telling you the truth. If it werent for Ms. Villagomez I would be completely lost, and have no idea where to start... But under all this stress, I feel like im such a burden to everyone especially her. On top of that when i try to tell my mother about everything and update her about what i have to do.. She turns to me and tells me "I don't know what to tell you April you have to do it". Please tell me something i dont know, or actually beeing there and help me deal with all of this crazyness!